In this video I answer a couple of questions around whether I am male or female in my dreams and whether I have felt any regret about surgery.

In this video I share some thoughts on the consequences of surgery. Also I talk about how important it is to ask deep question about why we feel a need to transition.

In this video I share some thoughts on the male fascination with femininity, the cruelty of transition and finding the gift within the pain.

In this video I answer some personal questions and share my views on the changes in treatment since i transitioned, dysphoria, surgery, therapy, regret, sex, and some bigger questions.

For those interested as to why I hold the view that culture is engineered and manipulated to serve agendas that we are not privy to, here are a couple of links to credible well researched websites that were a starting point for me.
Incredibly detailed and well researched information, backed up with historical records and audio visual media .
Begin with the roamcasts. This very wise man has a different perspective, one that I agree with. That the agendas are the surface to a deeper conflict, one that is spiritual in nature.
Interesting interview on transhumanism and the link with transgenderism

In this video I share a question I've been asking myself. Is the idea of transition and trans identity causing a crisis in those young people affected by " gender dysphoria ".

In this video I share some thoughts on transition, what you gain and what you lose.

In this video I share some thoughts on how our need to be seen is really our need for intimacy and how that deep need can manifest in trans identity.

Another doorway opens onto deeper understanding. I'm discovering that knowing, is a many layered process, as is feeling. With each layer comes greater freedom and self acceptance.

In this video I talk about toxic narratives, feeling, and seeking the healing presence of femininity.
Also I share some thoughts on how in my view many trans people seem to be acquiring characteristics as way of transcending feelings of not being enough as they are.
Below is a great video by Psychologist, Sasha Ayad where she explains this idea in clear and uncomplicated language .

In this video I share my thoughts on attachment to the story of our life. Does this define us or restrict us.

In this video I share some thoughts on ageing, healing and moving past the exploration of desire and form that is transition and toward a less ego centric sense of identity .

In this video I share some thoughts on allowing the past to be where it is, and allowing the present moment to fill with possibilities.
Sitting in nature is so healing. There, it is easy to step outside myself and place feelings in a healthier context.

In this video I share my thoughts on how living in nature changed my view of transition.
Also I expand on some ideas that I shared in yesterdays video.

This video is a continuation of what I spoke about in the last two. Navigating the contradiction and conflict of feelings and finding a way of Being transsexual, without being contrived.

This video is in a way, a continuation of yesterdays video.

In this video I share my thoughts on finding the real, within the act of transition. Also, I answer some questions.

This video is very candid and quite explicit. I talk about what I believe transgenderism represents. Also I share my experience of sex and what insights emerged from those experiences. There are links below.
( brilliant, plain language explanation of transgender terminology )

(sex reassignment surgery )

( article on transgenderism and link to transhumanism )

( Klaus Schwab speaking about 4I )

( article linking together transhumanism and transgenderism )

In this video I talk about this next transition I am undergoing. Not the joyful embodiment of femininity but the process of moving past the supporting illusion that I had created and stepping into reality.

In this video I share some thoughts on transition, being, nature and men.

In this video I talk about feeling trapped and a little conflicted by my need to continue to take hormones. I also speak about the pitfalls of contriving an act for the acceptance of others, a big issue for trans people.

In this video I talk about the reality of surgery, the delicate self delusion of some trans people and my experience as a transsexual, finding a way to live without this.
The need to live in delusion is a profoundly powerful one, a world of our own making can feel safer and more manageable but ultimately will prevent us from living a freer life.


Created 1 month ago.

23 videos

Category People & Family

My name is Maya, after transitioning a long time ago and spending ten years revelling in that experience, I have spent the last ten years on a revealing journey back to the truth of what and who I am.
Now, in my middle years, growing past the confines of transition and surgery, I find a deepening, more honest connection with life.
Here on this channel I do my best to share what insights I have gained on that journey out of illusion and back to reality.