In this wide ranging, candid conversation, Corrina and I go into a lot of different areas of our experience as trans individuals, too many to list here.
We do have much more to cover so this will be the first of a series where we'll go into more challenging and contentious areas.
Hopefully you will find this conversation as interesting as I did.
Listed below is a little of what we discussed.
Is there such a thing as a separate gender identity, distinct from biology
Trans identity as a coping strategy
Hormone wash theory
Acquiring power, strength without violence
Being bullied as small boy
Transition as a solution to fear and discomfort of being male
The horror of puberty
Feeling controlled by testosterone
The incongruity of keeping your genitals post transition
Not having an opportunity to grow into being male
Sadness post transition
Feeling incomplete, feeling false
Owning what we are as transsexuals. Finding liberation and stability
The instability of delusion
Does FFS make you happier
Passing as a defence
Deviating from nature, feeling conflicted, contriving appearance
Indifference toward transition
Is it still necessary to continue to " do " femininity. Does it still mean anything, does it have a purpose
Middle age transitioners, leaping out of the closet... Caitlyn Jenner
Being with yourself
Sissy hypno porn
Surgical self harm
" woman face'
Is there a metaphysical aspect to the trans identity. And more.......
In this video I continue to talk about detransition, self acceptance and acknowledging masculinity.
By this I don't mean simply uttering the words " I am male" . I mean a deep acceptance of the masculine qualities I suppressed and ignored for so long.
Wholeness and stability cannot emerge without complete self acceptance.
In this and the next couple of videos I will be talking about detransition.
Is this even possible. What does it mean to me.
I also talk about the following.
Resting in the truth of what I am.
The effortlessness of simply being.
The unavoidable reality of facing myself
In this video I share my thoughts on the sadness I see in older trans people.
I also talk about the following.
My own sense of feeling that I inhabit a space between loss and longing.
Being male but not a man.
Within performance, losing a connection to truth.
Inhabiting a space between masculine and feminine.
The solace of holding on to unresolved longing.
The imbalance with the compromise of transition.
Being free and uncontrived.
In this video I share my thoughts on the following,
Detransition, removing my implants.
The shift from ego to selfhood
Feelings of being confined by physical transformation
Perhaps male transitioners mistake the feeling of larping as women, for the freedom of self.
Is surgical transformation a trap, a mistake
In this video I share some more personal history.
In this video I share some personal history
In this video I share some thoughts on the consequences of surgery. Also I talk about how important it is to ask deep question about why we feel a need to transition.
In this video I share some thoughts on the male fascination with femininity, the cruelty of transition and finding the gift within the pain.
In this video I answer some personal questions and share my views on the changes in treatment since i transitioned, dysphoria, surgery, therapy, regret, sex, and some bigger questions.
For those interested as to why I hold the view that culture is engineered and manipulated to serve agendas that we are not privy to, here are a couple of links to credible well researched websites that were a starting point for me.
Incredibly detailed and well researched information, backed up with historical records and audio visual media .
Begin with the roamcasts. This very wise man has a different perspective, one that I agree with. That the agendas are the surface to a deeper conflict, one that is spiritual in nature.
Interesting interview on transhumanism and the link with transgenderism
In this video I share a question I've been asking myself. Is the idea of transition and trans identity causing a crisis in those young people affected by " gender dysphoria ".
In this video I share some thoughts on transition, what you gain and what you lose.
In this video I talk about toxic narratives, feeling, and seeking the healing presence of femininity.
Also I share some thoughts on how in my view many trans people seem to be acquiring characteristics as way of transcending feelings of not being enough as they are.
Below is a great video by Psychologist, Sasha Ayad where she explains this idea in clear and uncomplicated language .
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My name is Maya, after transitioning a long time ago and spending ten years revelling in that experience, I have spent the last ten years on a revealing journey back to the truth of what and who I am.
Now, in my middle years, growing past the confines of transition and surgery, I find a deepening, more honest connection with life.
Here on this channel I do my best to share what insights I have gained on that journey out of illusion and back to reality.