Xylen Roberts-Crawling Towards The Sun (2012)

I was a fool, self-rightous fool
lost in a labrynth of blind hatred
I just couldn't let people be, I argued and criticised them all away
and everytime that I apologized, the bitterness it still surged within me
now that I've lost all their respet, I'm trying hard to lay low and move on
and some say they'll welcome me back but I just can't face them
without a drink or a colonopin
and they just know if I take one drink, it all starts again
a downward spiral into insanity, into belligerance
I've got the bi-polar, I've got the bi-polar, bipolar blues

it took me a while to realize that the problem was just myself
then the depakote and the other meds, they just put me in worse mental health
but over the years I noticed that they were just as bad,
they put on a public facade but behind closed curtains
they would shit talk on each other, a hatred seemed to permeate the scene
but this isn't a me versus them,
there's no civility when everyone's guilty

inside our flaking skin, foul demons dwell within, and I'm trying to purge mine out
I don't care what I was, I don't care what they think anymore
It's all cracked like the pavement, cracked like the pavement,
now flowers are growing, I'm crawling towards the sun

crawling towards the sun
while fast feet they stomp on me

don't let the sun go down, don't let it start again...

^^^^^^ music and lyrics by Xylen Roberts, 2012^^^^^^^^^

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