Journey Of Adam - In Search for Messiah

--This is a update, not what this video is about. I Will add Meaning of video at end of page ---
I have been very ill the past 6 days. Having debilitating constant pain in my left jaw and theoat, as if i swallowed a huge blade of glass that has lacerated and split open the inside of my mouth and swollen my asophagas, making it very painful to swallow. Have been laid up and not able to do a dam thing as the pain demands and concentrates all of my focus and attention. What I am told is that my jaw will not house my wisdom teeth, that their is no room for them as they are bursting through my gums and applying force against my other molars, putting pressure on my bite. They are moving forward to do a 5-tooth extraction asap. Asap meaning towards the end of this month. So its going to be a brutal struggle for the next 19 days, and then the surgery begins...its a little unnerving. Not looking forward to any of it. Its the reason I have not been posting on my channels. Hopefully the worst has passed and hopefully this will take care of the root of it all and I can remember living without continual pain.

------------------ Video Meaning --------------------
THE SEARCH FOR MESSIAH - Its A Story
The jet packer is in search for something, he is encapsulated in suit as well as in his own thought. He is aware in his search for truth and for meaning and for answers to fill this void which is a hallowing heart thou yurning repeatedly of discontent and mourns in echos and its strength comes and goes in waves as do the days. At the center of your being, sitting side by your heart it burdens each beating causing fatigue and heaving. Their is no way reduce its weight. Perhaps it seems for a time, but nothing that is everlasting. in a kept locked hole that no one is allowed to know. Its aching. Why does it persist? Why wont it go? It is this feeling that has you searching, to fill it is your goal, feed it you will but their is no bottom to this insatiable hole.
I once had this hole in my chest, i called it the void. It is what I believed caused all of my depression. Perhaps the key is the right pill or poison? That will only make it worse or make you permanently numb and enveloped in with the void. I discovered what it was and I no longer feel its curse. If you are like me, you have tried it all, no other could be wiser and could tell me what it is or why it is. But dear beloved I'll tell you the truth, I will tell you as no other. You may not believe me today but what I tell you will follow until your day of discovery. It is the thing that you fight not knowing it is you who are running, and what your running from makes your soul upset and homesick. Your soul cannot get lost, unless you take it there. Your soul's heart is tied to yours and it mourns that you have been led astray in rebellion, deceived and led to not think so. Led not by your own decision but imposed indoctrination, cast upon from without it has surplanted rebellion within you, thinking and believing you came to what is its conclusion, not yours, against your purpose and reason of creation, to pit you against your own blood, against your own family, your own creator, against your own father and at war in your self and at odds with your soul. When your eyes and heart are fully tuned, ready to finally see, to reunite all the broken pieces that boke into you, you gather your lost your self your soul your core your heart your path your purpose your truth your meaning will all unite together and overcome and all that you held high and cherrished, set them by the way side with ease and let it be abandoned, for reborn requires you unspotted, new and greater. Its all a matter of choice and its only tour choice to have. Understanding that truth needs a bearing, Your truth has to be calibrated to the true source....true truth. And that Truth has been waiting for you to discover, and when you discover its like no other for truth can only be one thing. When you recognize it and follow, you will never be homesick for you are heading the direction of home. And here awaits you as you are restored in grace and glory, and at last you can begin your new found Journey.