UNIT Nothing Left

In 2011 I completed my last will and testament, put my affairs in order and stood a full bottle of Grants whisky plus a bottle of tranquilisers (Mogodon) on my bedside table. This did not represent a moment of despair or depression; on the contrary I welcomed my impending death – aware I represented a complete failure (hardly anybody read my books or listened to my music) I decided I had nothing to contribute to the planet so it was time to remove myself from it.

This is one of 4 numbers I completed in 2011 for the album Per Ardua Ad Astra which I decided would be the final UNIT disc on which I appeared. However, perhaps due to my emotional state, the performance was rough and the tempo too brisk. I have rectified these anomalies and this is how the number should have sounded. I still question the validity of my continued existence on a planet already over-populated but now I have access to free recording studio time, I may as well make take advantage of it.

So these are your feelings? They look pretty grim.
I would not treat anyone the way you treated him.
What is the point building relationships with anyone?

I tried to find reason – it didn’t make sense:
cold, callous brutality was your last line of defence.
What does it matter after everything is said and done?

I cried out in the darkness, forgetting just then
that the pain soon returns nine times out of ten.
I used to rage blindly against any and everyone.

I used to ask questions: what, where, when, why and how;
but eventually I realised, they really don’t matter now.
I still recall some of the people who I used to know.

You used to upset me – it seemed so unfair;
but now you can forget me for I no longer care.
All that remains are bitter memories from so long ago.
I cannot feel...not anymore...I used to feel pity...now I’ve nothing left.

Andy Martin – Vocal, ARP 2600, Korg M1,
Moog Modular, Piano, Vibraphone.
Fabian Fritze – Bass Guitar.
Colin Murrell – Drums.

Text & Music – Andy Martin.

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