Originally aired: Apr 1st, 2017
As you can probably tell, I'm uploading a lot of videos from a period in which I was doing random music-related stuff. I did eventually get back to some reviews and shitposts, but for now, I want to show you one of my most well-received videos thus far. It's a song I wrote for guitar class, and I put a lot of effort into it. I challenged myself instrumentally and vocally in making an emotional song that others might be able to relate to. Here are the lyrics:
I walk a lonely road, lined with skeletons along the curb,
'Bout eighty of them lookin' peaceful and the other twenty lookin' quite disturbed
I try to focus on what's pleasing to the eye, but all that I can see
Is the image of those twenty skeletons that is still haunting me
I live a life that's just shy of a poor boy's fantasy
Compliments and benefits are raining down on me
I should be content as far as anyone could see,
But when I roll my eyes into my head,
I almost wish that I were dead
I am not good enough for me
Please save this poor fool! Please lift his curse
As he trudges through an endless rain of self-regret
I am too lazy. I am too dim
All these deprecating words just make me want to choke
Beating myself up, grasping at straws,
Trying in vain to fix myself, and I wonder,
"Am I even broke?"
It's as pointless as trying to walk to the sun,
And I know it to be true,
But when I can't stand my actions and words,
I don't know what else to do to fix myself
I can still see the skeletons as I continue with my day,
But does it matter if I see some stray bones lying in my way?
I'm not just some poor fool who's been put under a curse,
Drowning in a bottomless ocean of regret
I can't just keep on destroying myself
What good will that do in the end?
Slaying my demons, freeing my mind
Trying to fix myself just hurts me more
'Cause I ain't even broke
'Cause I ain't even broke
