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Being in the mother role is the best possible situation for a sadistic narcissistic psychopath because they get to be a sadistic god over a reality they totally control. The child's pain and vulnerability feeds their malignancy and their lust for power, control, and domination.
In general, narc abuse is something outsiders can't possibly understand. Even at my level of understanding, I went back to review some e-mails received from one, and they really are masters at hiding their malignancy, and their malignant intentions against you, while accumulating data about you to best prey on any vulnerabilities they perceive. We all have weak areas when you are being targeted by a master psychopath with whom you think you share an important bond.
In my case there I was thinking I could confide in this parent, and of course they let me think that, while they were actually data-mining to figure out how they were going to bring me down.
I'm better able to forgive myself for being duped because they are good at being evil and weaving their schemes against the target. We have to learn to test the waters and be more discerning. The malignant narc uses pity ploys and claims to be in need so that you end up helping a party whose only intention is undermining and destroying you. In other cases they use future-faking where they apparently have something for you. Before you know it, it's possible to have years of your life diverted by a devil in the flesh who is trying to murder you without leaving a trail.
A key point in these dynamics is that you have good intentions for them, they have only evil intentions for you, and they need to figure out a scheme to conquer you. This explains why one of mine liked to project using the term pure evil, with duping delight of course. If these types are happy it's because something they are doing that is evil is going undetected or they are witnessing the fruits of their labors toward your destruction. They are miserable and frustrated if you aren't falling for their schemes and are balanced, content, and thriving. If you have a bond with them, they will try to punish your successes and reward your failures. Remember, everything is upside down for them because their goals for you are at total odds to what you think. You think they're on your team, and they're just using that pretense to make inroads and help you take out yourself using psychological control.
They can be VERY covert and calculated in disguising their evil. Remember, they know what you are, and they know when you know what they are that the game is over, so the covert aspect is key to their survival and dominion over you.
Almost if not EVERY interaction you have with them is an act they are putting on. You aren't speaking to them directly, just the facade they put on for you. This is why it can often seem like they are laughing at you. This facade is the mask or filter between you and the demonic malignancy inside that wants to destroy you. Let that sink in.
Probably thoughts and beliefs influence reality more than we know, and probably the controllers are using media and schooling similar to how an advanced sadistic narcissist uses family and relationships. When you are inside the matrix of one of these malignant creatures, you can quickly fall into despair if that is their intention for you. I've experienced it myself. It happened when I tried to make myself understood that I might at last have a healthy bond with this parent, and in the process I was going deeper into their web of gaslight and deception while they were accumulating more and more data about me to better prey on and feed on my vulnerabilities.
No, I was not a vulnerable person per se, and these topics aren't easy to explain unless you yourself have direct firsthand experience. I can easily understand how you can lose all hope and will to live in this reality if you become entangled in their webs. They seem to put an obscene amount of effort into preying on certain people. So do many who play addictive video games, meaning how much effort and time they expend, and if you view it in that light it's more understandable. They get such a rush out of sadism, power, control, reality manipulation, abuse, life sabotage, and being superior. Life is a game for them, and they make their own rules to ensure they come out on top.
Another observation I have is that lying is a sign of disrespect. If you don't care about someone then you may not care about lying to and about them. Gaslighting and everything else as well. The entity hates you, but knows that the best way to fulfill their hatred against you is through calculated scheming and covert sabotage.
