If You Feel Like You Don't Fit In

posted by my source...
I am a first waver and i helped these non karmic first time ones to even get in any body here on earth...i was ascended and came back and lived 4 lifetimes .four seasons...for embodying and altering my own body by example..this lifetime i am complete and carried these souls into earth .into bodies for 20 yrs .in 2018 and 2019 i had my first non karmic children..who are in a way . my children..or learn through my overlay .or the shield they get from me before birth already..to make it able to even BE HERE..and do their job..being living example..it is not my being a leader or being superman or superwoman..but their energies their body and soul came here to put in a special energy to earth...they will stay only one lifetime ..

Without that shield they would have been absorbed by all shadows of the masses..
I carry these children..it's very hard...because if there is a problem in the field of these children...i have to solve it for them....
I have been plucked out shunned..made look like i am crazy..i never was right and a nothing..this is how i grew up .but i knew better..i was awake all the way through..and i noticed one of the hardest things for me is..that i stayed loyal and nice to my worst abusers..not like victims simply cannot be..but knowing and seeing their problems .their karma and flaws...most of these wounded humans feel that if they around me..they don't like the mirrored feeling and end up leaving me..betraying me..manipulating me..put spells .and manmade so physical blocks in my life so they can enjoy how i suffer my imperfection because of that..it's very pittyful those people .i used to have compassion for these people but their origin of those actions towards me and therefore all my what they call first to 5th wavers on earth, also suffer the debris and negative thoughts of these people..some are in and in bad...to the core..

I have been protecting these kids so they had a fair start and now in 2018 that job ended..slowly .they are all on their own now..those born in 2008 and 2009.., since i opened the portal in 2007 in New Zealand, so outsiders could get in..through the closed matrix that we were stuck in..and at first it was only the communications of the highest frequencies that could enter and some species to help spread it towards those who carried my shield or overlay.
They were updated..since i was enclosed here for 4 lifetimes and i am still recovering from that...
We do not bond very well to the old "me too' people....since we don't share the very bad deeds and reactions of them of being treated badly ..let's call it that..so they cannot resonate with out frequencies..they have no references and me as the true gene pole one version .i had to consciously and very well through out rough had to lower myself into those vibes with those family trees who were the worst of the worst and through living that life i had to totally transform that family karma and them through being there and my actions ..that lowered me too..but at the end of each life i would always had cleansed my self so i ascend each lifetime and then go by own choice go into the next one . The dark ones found this out and we're after me all the time...this is where the massive abortion hypes or baby killings in the past come from they would find out where we would get born..through astral and cosmic configurations they knew in what type of body or star sign and true gene pool One starseeds like me would get born into..so that was very challenging..but i made it .2018 was the end of the abusive lifetimes and needing to take care of my thousands of true pure ones..doing their own grown up things..they might be in their twenties now but are older souls than i am .over 100k yrs old if you can compare it in earth lifetimes..they are karma free remember and had to learn how to stay in that state, not compromising self..they all graduated and i am soooo tired..i was under attack for at least 40yrs..since it took all my life to prep this and not having a 3d life..like others do .too.
5 lifetimes of prepping in the master years only...very hard .but i made it!
This i wanted to say here..because the story you hear here is a bit ..incomplete so to speak .

Have a great new life because since 2018 every human and animal of earth have their sovereignty back!!! Don't give it away again..

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