What's going on with your health Gavin???

Back in 2019, I took an antibiotic that nearly killed me and continues to haunt me to this very day.

My journey into understanding what had taken place began when I started getting stabbing headaches and then couldn't walk straight.

The headaches were so intense that I actually believed I had brain cancer at first and went for a brain scan.

After quite some time I discovered that I consistently had "critically high" marks on my liver blood work and white blood cells.

This did not make sense to me because although I drank like a sailor and partied like Rick James when I was younger, I hadn't had a drink in like 10 years and lived cleaner than anyone I knew of, personally or impersonally. No alcohol, no drugs, no caffeine, no junk food, no bullshit, no short cuts. I began living a stoic lifestyle long before it became a bandwagon philosophy and learned that the standard we hold ourselves to individually can elevate us so far beyond the collective mindset of what we credulously call "civilization" that what we do can genuinely appear to others as impossible.

To put this in different terms, through a methodical balance of meticulous introspection and extrospection we invariably become aware that what we are and what we are conditioned to become are two very different things; the former being a Warrior that wields the creative sword of conscious choice which gives rise to incalculable potential and the latter a slave shackled by unthinking conformity and unconscious choice which gives rise to incalculable tragedy.

Despite my subjective perception of reality - that mentally and physically I had become invulnerable through my conquests of PTSD, alcoholism, anxiety, addiction, depression, ill health, tribalism and beyond - the objective Reality and Truth quickly reminded me that our limited understanding of this mystical life is but a raindrop in an infinite ocean of potential and possibility. We can live a thousand lifetimes and still only scratch the surface of ..