The bottomless pit of trying to awaken others rather than seeking the Spirit of God

Any excuse to come down to my favourite park to speak of the gospel of peace love and truth & share some testimonies in the sunshine. Now the main video has concluded, before I start the new one, I wanted to share some scriptures that are on my heart as I feel new layers of truth are being revealed. Psalm 119.2 tells us "Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart". Having the Holy Spirit dwell within us is the gift of all gifts, for me, there be none greater. 2 Corinthians 4 tells us that through the progression of faith, our lives become the life of the LORD Jesus Christ. This also going to the restitution of all things, the man being created in God's image, ye shall be Holy for I am Holy. So then, we in the body of Christ while walking in the gospel of peace love and truth, by the day have the Holy Spirit being made manifest in us. So why do we give ourselves, to the point of of exhaustion and as my testimony says to the point of wrath to they who hate the truth and revile what we have to say? Is this godly? I'm starting to see, again, through testimony that our priority must be to seek the Holy Spirit with our salvation foremost. The way we conduct our lives in the glorious gospel be the manner the Holy Spirit will use us to wake the others, by us being led by his glorious holy Spirit