Living in a carnal body in carnal world - How far should we go

So yes it was a big conundrum for me in my studies for so long, but it seems the answer was staring me in the face the whole time. Time and again in these scriptures, our reality & in this gospel, the truth seems strange at first, but then presents as plain logic as it solidifies in the ever-growing spiritual heart. The LORD God plants the garden, and there he puts the man whom he had formed. The man is brought to the land as he is given his new heart in Christ. For so long id been seeing the heart as the land but couldn't reconcile how the man can come to the land, but yet the heart is given to us. The seed is the word of God given us so that the LORD can write his laws in our hearts. The new heart Gods land as we are brought to Christ on repentance. This now has brought everything in the OT into discussion on a whole new level, as the carnal "Israel" continues to reveal the depths of her black heart of death.

For me the struggle of living my life as a now spiritual entity is real and intensifies by the hour with every experience. Issues emerge that seem so trivial, but the carnal emotions can swell up, leading me at times to be at the point of losing this red-hot temper of mine. But what about when we are deprived of a carnal requirement such as sleep? How does the happy soldier on Christ deal with this as we strive to be consistent in our behavior in our day to day lives. Jealously is a curse they say. But recent experiences have caused me to ask this question of myself, as well as the deeper mystery of where these carnal emotions are birthed from & how we put them to death, if indeed we are to put them to death. The struggle is real and intensifying.

I feel I've reached a point of both challenge & concern in the scriptures, culminating in the gospels. Reading one of Jesus parables for over the 30th time & still not understanding has caused me to put down the book in exasperation, feeling I just have nothing left. It took me around a week just to read Matthew this time as I just feel empty and drained as I hear Jesus' cry "How is it that ye do not understand?" as I sat there at 4AM still not understanding. I have been faced with a moment I knew was coming, but now it has arrived.

As has day 100 of the weight loss mission, with the final answer to the white bread roll question being answered. To have or not to have the white bread roll at day 100. A question that has gotten very deep for me as this diet continues to reveal some deep spiritual truths as the Holy Spirit moves me ever closer to understanding his & his perfect will. Living in a carnal body in carnal world - How far should we go